I am just a mess. I cry everyday and as much as I am trying to be strong and keep things together, it is just so hard. I mean I am strong when I am around people, especially my dad but when I am alone, I just sporadically and unpredictably cry.
I am so terrified. I have no idea how long I will have my dad here with us. 3 mo, 9mo, 1 year, etc. I cannot wrap my head around this!!
I cannot believe that one day he will not be here to hug me!
I am so angry! Why couldnt they find this earlier? He has a heart condition and diabetes, he is at the doctors all the time. Also, Ive learned that diabetes is a sign of pancreatic cancer. So, why cant they screen for this?!!
