So I'm not sure if many of you would remember, but I had a m/c in September and then a D&C in November. I was then diagnosed with a MTHFR gene mutation. DH and I decided we would put off TTCing indefinitely because we couldn't take the emotional toll any longer. Plus, we wanted to wait until physically I had my health under control.
Imagine my surprise when 2 months later I received my BFP. We were not trying and when I tell you it could have only happened 1 of 2 "occasions", I am not exaggerating.
I went to my high risk doctor and they found an empty sac and quickly told me I'd have to call my regular OB "to schedule something". I was devastated. I couldn't believe I was having my 3rd m/c. The following week I went for one last sono before we started bringing on a m/c. Low and behold, there was a baby AND a heartbeat. Today marks 12wks for me and everything looks great.
To say that I am scared is an understatement. Every day is another day of pure terror and fears. I am constantly waiting for bad news. I have faith that this is going to be okay though. I can't thank you all enough for being so supportive throughout my losses. To those of you that are just beginning your journey here on this board- my heart breaks for you. Sometimes, suffering a m/c feels like the loneliest point of your life. Just know that in time everything will begin to look up. I never, ever thought things would get better for me. But- here I am.
