Did/does anyone question their faith?

I was watching bits and pieces of the Casey Anthony trial and recently heard a story of an infant being left on the stairs of a HS. I don't understand why people that don't want children have a healthy 9 month pregnancy and beautiful healthy children and I can't seem to get past the 5th week of pregnancy. It doesn't make sense to me. We can financially and emotionally support and love a baby why can't we have one?

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It's one of those things in life I'll never understand.

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Yes, I agree 100% with Stacey. Its just something we'll never understand. I dont question my faith however. I know God has a plan for me..

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I know what you mean. DH and I are not church going people, but that's not to say that we're not religious. I believe that there is a God and when the day comes that I meet him, I will have a laundry list of questions for him! To be honest, I was VERY VERY mad at God immediatly following the m/c. I cursed him and yelled at him for what happened. I was mad for all we went thru to get pg. I was mad to think of the terror that I know I'm going to feel when I do get pg again - fearing something will happen to the next baby. I was mad to lose this baby in such a horrible way. I was mad for what he did to our baby. I know the MD's kept saying that the baby didn't have the capacity to feel the deformities, but I still can't help but feel that he suffered. It breaks my heart that God rendered me helpless to comfort our baby and I was so mad that God didn't prevent this from happening. But now, as each day passes, I'm realizing more and more that he did help. My grandma passed about 2 1/2 weeks before we lost the baby and I asked her to watch over the baby before anything had happened. I now feel that the events of the day that we lost the baby were guided by my grandma. She kept all of us as safe as could be that day that day and prevented us from making decisions that we would have forever questioned ourselves for making. She and God made those decisions for us. I feel like that couldn't have happened if it wasn't for God. I know I'm rambling and not sure how much sense I'm making. But to answer your question - yes - I did question my faith for a bit. I think that is only natural because in a time that you are truly just so lost, you look for anyone, anything, to blame and question. Its only with time and perspective that you realize that there is a bigger plan for all of us and, although it doesn't make sense now, eventually there will be meaning to all of this. I have to believe that.

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I dont understand it and yes I have questioned my faith. I have questioned alot of things too - like is this payback for something unpleasant I may have done in the past. Ugh.

In the end, I think it is just nature though and not anything God had control over. I really have to believe that and stick by it, otherwise I get crazy in my head.

What I have learned is pregnancy is really a miracle. I know it is called the "miracle of life" and I truly believe it now. I know when I get pregnant and have my baby - I will not take him/her for granted. Ever.

Hang in there

Message edited 6/19/2011 1:02:44 AM.

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I did but in a different way. I was never really a believer in God before but after losing I started hoping there was something more out there. Now I understand why people to turn to God when they lose someone because it makes it easier to cope with. In a way it brought me closer to God and I started praying.

However I don't understand how some people are blessed to be parents but they don't take care of their children. You hear about it all the time and we see it glorified on TV shows like Teen Mom. I don't get it. There are so many wonderful women out there struggling with infertility that would be great parents and are not. Same thing for women who go through pregnancy loss. We all really wanted our babies and loved them and they were taken from us. It's sad.

I finally learned to realize that these things are beyond my control and I can't let it upset me. Life can be really great and it can be really terrible, it's what you make of it.

Hang in there. I am hoping one day everything makes sense for all of us and we are all blessed to have children and be parents.

Message edited 6/19/2011 9:37:05 AM.

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Posted by bettybcafe

I dont question my faith however. I know God has a plan for me..