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santababy
LIF Infant
Member since 2/11 86 total posts
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wanted to share this with you (sorry long)
A very good friend of mine suggested that i write down my thoughts to the baby we lost instead of bottling it up. At first it terrified me to put down my thoughts and have to relive it, but it has been the best therapy for me and really made me feel a little less weighed down...I hope that in some small way it helps some of you ladies. I am not a frequent poster, but your stories and words have been comfort to me. :)
The moment I knew of you, the most perfect representation of my heart, I loved you.
When i heard you, i cried the most beautiful tears I've ever shed.
When i saw you, my heart shifted in that instant to make room for the love I felt for you.
When I told people of you, I watched how they fell in love with the idea of you.
When I thought of you arriving, I longed to hold you and see your face.
When lost you, I lost myself.
I lost the part of my heart that had grown to fit you.
I lost the innocence of feeling that I was your shelter, your protector.
I lost everything good and replaced it with bad;
With sadness,
With aching,
With unanswered questions,
With guilt that I failed you.
I want you back, but i know I can't have you.
I want to tell you that I loved you before you were here.
And while it may have been brief, that love was the most beautiful gift and I am thankful to have shared it with you.
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Posted 8/27/11 11:27 AM  |
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StaceyWill
It's a girl!!!
Member since 6/10 21539 total posts
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Stacey
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Re: wanted to share this with you (sorry long)
Oh wow! That was beautiful!! It made me cry 
Writing is wonderful therapy and I hope you find comfort in it. 
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| Posted 8/27/11 11:59 AM |
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autumn
Mommy to 2 divas
Member since 9/07 3389 total posts
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Lisa
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Re: wanted to share this with you (sorry long)
Posted by StaceyWill
Oh wow! That was beautiful!! It made me cry
Writing is wonderful therapy and I hope you find comfort in it.
my words exact, it was so beautiful and I also started to cry. I hope you also find comfort. I wish I did this with my loss. Thank you for sharing
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| Posted 8/27/11 5:00 PM |
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bettybcafe
Big brother in the making
Member since 7/07 8611 total posts
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Re: wanted to share this with you (sorry long)
Wow, that is absolutely beautiful. I found writing to be a great way to let it out. I wrote about 3 pages in a journal the day I had my miscarriage. It really made me feel better 
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| Posted 8/27/11 5:02 PM |
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beachgirl
LIF Adult
Member since 7/05 7967 total posts
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sara
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Re: wanted to share this with you (sorry long)
Thanks for sharing To be honest I am terrified of thinking, feeling or writing about my MC, Its like I have stored it away somewhere safe and I am afraid to open up the wound but I know its not healthy because then out of the blue a reminder will pop up and literally leave me breathless. I know I have to think about it and feel it in order to move on but I am avoiding it
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| Posted 8/27/11 8:58 PM |
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santababy
LIF Infant
Member since 2/11 86 total posts
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Re: wanted to share this with you (sorry long)
thanks guys i locked it away so tight it became almost like a physical ailment...i had to let it out to heal in a small way. thank you for your kind words
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| Posted 8/27/11 9:01 PM |
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snowflake09
LIF Adult
Member since 4/10 1076 total posts
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Jillian (Bean08)
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Re: wanted to share this with you (sorry long)
Beautiful
And so many of us can completely understand exactly what you have written. Thanks for sharing.
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| Posted 8/30/11 10:23 AM |
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Diana1215
Living on a prayer!!!
Member since 10/05 29450 total posts
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Diana
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Re: wanted to share this with you (sorry long)
That was beautiful, brought me to tears
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| Posted 8/30/11 1:27 PM |
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MrsM429
Mama x2 <3
Member since 12/10 4946 total posts
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Re: wanted to share this with you (sorry long)
beautifully written
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| Posted 8/31/11 10:25 PM |
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