Still in denial...

I don't know if I was reading too many stories on the misdiagnosed miscarriage website, but there is a part of me that thinks the baby is in there and doing fine but the ultrasound just still can't see it. I am in total denial that i have lost the baby.

I should be 10 weeks today according to my LMP. And I had ultrasounds at 8 weeks and 9.5 weeks which both showed an empty sac. I really didn't like the ultrasound tech and I tried calling another doctors office to get a second opinion and they gave me a really hard time about it. I am supposed to go back in 1 more week and if I don't miscarry they will schedule a D&C. I just can't bring myself to do it of there is any possible way this baby is still in there. I keep hoping I'll go in next week and there will be a perfect little 11 week baby and a strong heartbeat and i will say - see i told ya so! And the doctor will be amazed.. But I know these stories are 1 in a million.

Any one else having a hard time letting go?

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yeah i was still hoping at the very end. i had pregnancies symptoms so I assumed everything would be ok and they are just not seeing the baby in the ultrasound. maybe it was too early. i was about 6 weeks 4 days. but then i decide to call my friend who has been through this a couple of times. she gave me the truth and said def by 6 weeks you should see a heartbeat. it isn't a healthy baby and you should move on. it was a very hard pill to swallow but i appreciated her honsety. i then listened to the Drs and agreed to have the injection. It was great closure for me. The sooner I can get this done the faster i can start TTC again. it turns out i had an ectopic pregnancy so i'm very happy i ended it for my health. the longer you wait may not be safe for your body if it is growing outside your uterus. i hope this helps. i'm very sorry that you have to go through this. it is one of the hardest things to go through.

Still in denial...

I agree- I asked a trusted family member in the medical field and at 7 weeks (the point we were at) there should have resoundingly been a heartbeat which there was not & she advised that even if somehow over the next week there was more development or they found a hb etc. nothing good was going to come out of this and this was not a healthy pregnancy. This gave me peace of mind; hope it does for you too! I just went through this last week so I know how you feel :(

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But it makes you wonder when you hear stories like these:

http://www.misdiagnosedmiscarriage.com/mycommunity/viewtopic.php?f=14&t=11318

Especially the ones under "Babies found after 10 weeks" and they end up healthy and fine. It DOES happen. Yes it's very unlikely but these are real stories and it makes me wonder. It's just hard to give up.

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I'm having a hard time as well ! A day before I found out the baby wasn't alive anymore I thought I felt it move Even after I past it the other day ,last night I thought I felt it again and quickly remembered it is no longer with me

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my previous pg was a blighted ovum (empty sac). I googled everything and read all of these stories about misdiagnosed miscarraiges and drove myself crazy. I had 3 ultrasounds each time the sac grew and no baby, it was completely devastating because I had all my pregnancy symptoms; your body *thinks* its pregnant and eventually will realize that there is no fetus; my Dr advised me that it could take weeks. It was a very difficult decision and i had to stop reading those online stories filling me with fear and false hope. I finally had a d&c at a little over 10 week; it was very emotional but finally having closure was very benefical for me and allowed me to move on and grow from the experience.

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I am 7 weeks today ( got my bfp thru an iui so my dates are 100% accurate). Went in last week at 6 weeks and there was a sac but no heart beat, yolk or fetal pole. Went in again today at 7 weeks, there still was just an empty sac. The dr said it is probably blighted ovum and that I would soon start bleeding on my own. I just can't accept it. He is not rushing a D&C. I have to go back again next week (8weeks) and I guess we will see what happens then. I have been hysterical all day. I don't think I can do the D&C. I just can not accept that my baby is gone

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My heart just breaks for all of us that have to post on this board. I lost a sweet baby in March ’11 and it’s the hardest, most unfair thing that women go through. Reading posts like this really brings back feelings and memories. Not that they ever really go away…I think about him/her all the time.
Just wanted to give everyone hugs.