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PennyCat
Just call me mommy :)
Member since 7/08 19084 total posts
Name: Jib
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Rough day
I should be excited. I'm taking my last provera tonight. Each passing day puts us just another day closer to where we would have been.
I just can't help but have it run through my mind all day that I was supposed to be 6 1/2 months pregnant today.
I look back at this whole situation and I can't believe I made it 17.5wks. Totally feels like I'm hearing this news all over for the first time.
I don't know why today is harder than most. I really AM excited to start over.. injections and all .. but today I just feel angry that this is the situation at all .. not at all excited today... at all ..
Message edited 10/12/2010 5:11:06 PM.
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Posted 10/12/10 5:10 PM |
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Nicoley89
LIF Adolescent
Member since 9/10 623 total posts
Name: Nicole
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Re: Rough day
awww so sorry you feel like this... your not alone at all. I get angry and upset and it hits me at different times. It comes out of no where... I keep thinking how I would have had 2 1/2 months left. It's so frustrating. I'm hoping this time everything works out for you because you WILL have your baby.
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Posted 10/12/10 8:05 PM |
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SummerMom
Now a mom of 2!
Member since 6/07 4970 total posts
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Re: Rough day
It must be difficult to feel all those emotions at once. Excited, hopeful, angry, disappointed, and more, all at the same time.
You went through a terrible ordeal and are mourning a loss. There is no timeframe for when you "should" stop thinking about what you lost, even when you're happy about something unrelated. Keep taking it day by day.
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Posted 10/12/10 8:08 PM |
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Torts
LIF Toddler
Member since 9/10 494 total posts
Name: me
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Re: Rough day
I can't imagine what you are going through. I hope things get easier for you soon. Many prayers and good wishes
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Posted 10/12/10 9:32 PM |
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prunepie
LIF Adult
Member since 7/06 4357 total posts
Name: jennifer
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Re: Rough day
wishing you some relief and only good things to come xoxo
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Posted 10/12/10 10:12 PM |
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PennyCat
Just call me mommy :)
Member since 7/08 19084 total posts
Name: Jib
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Re: Rough day
Thank you ladies I think thinking about trying again in an abstract way seemed really simple.. Step 1- go back to RE Step 2- Start meds Step 3- IUI Step 4- Pregnant
In reality, there's just so much waiting and uncertainty I hate it! Suuuch a grueling process! I did this already. I experienced my joy and had it robbed from me. I hate that we're back here so soon .. I don't know why it's all hitting me today though.
Thanks again
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Posted 10/12/10 10:46 PM |
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MrsKS
Thank You St. Gerard.....
Member since 12/09 8306 total posts
Name: Kerri
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Re: Rough day
You are going to have ups and downs and setbacks here and there.
I'm so terribly sorry for what you had to experience.
I was doing really well for a while... and now that the holiday's are coming and I'm passed my due date.... it just get's you thinking and it's painful....
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Posted 10/13/10 8:23 AM |
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BabyHopes15
Thank you St. G for my boy PJ!
Member since 5/10 1756 total posts
Name: Aim
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Re: Rough day
Posted by Torts
I can't imagine what you are going through. I hope things get easier for you soon. Many prayers and good wishes
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Posted 10/13/10 8:33 AM |
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Re: Rough day
I'm so sorry. What you went thru was one of the hardest things anyone should have to go thru.
I would think you will have your great days and your bad days. This just happened to be a bad day and perfectly normal to feel it!
But all in all, as sad and angry as it makes us.......for some strange reason, there was a reason for what happened. Will we ever know why? Probably not. I did have a friend tell me once....its not our place to find out why. Kinda makes sense.
Just keep your head strong and look forward to the fun days ahead! In your mind, you know you will be a mommy soon!
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Posted 10/13/10 9:02 AM |
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ar1stbaby
LIF Adolescent
Member since 8/10 844 total posts
Name: Alisha
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Re: Rough day
I am so sorry for you. There are always going to be rough days and good days. Its hard to predict what will trigger them. You are moving forward, AF should come soon and then you can start over. I am with you the loss of control and uncertantitly is difficult and the waiting. I am with you, just finished my provera Monday. I am waiting with you for AF. FM if you want to talk and we can talk. My are with you.
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Posted 10/13/10 9:36 AM |
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neener1211
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Member since 4/07 22952 total posts
Name: J
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Re: Rough day
Just take things step by step.
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Posted 10/13/10 10:29 AM |
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summerwind
LIF Adolescent
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Re: Rough day
Im sorry you had such a rough day! hopfully today will be better!
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Posted 10/13/10 11:57 AM |
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SKPtzu
Oh boys
Member since 6/08 1388 total posts
Name: SKPtzu
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Re: Rough day
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Posted 10/13/10 3:50 PM |
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PennyCat
Just call me mommy :)
Member since 7/08 19084 total posts
Name: Jib
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Re: Rough day
Thank you ladies
I'm waiting for AF now... I think once I get started with my new protocol I'll feel much better. Bring on the gonal!
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Posted 10/13/10 5:31 PM |
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bride07
Ava Rose you are an angel!!!
Member since 3/09 6115 total posts
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Re: Rough day
I'm sorry hun!
You have been through so much. You will have some rough days, and that's ok. It's hard not to think about the "what would of been". It isnt fair. I had so many days I can remember where all I could do is cry, just have breakdowns, be mad at the world, etc.
Just know that you will have another miracle in the near future and stay positive!!! Allow yourself the time to grieve when you need. You have been so strong and positive through out your journey and I greatly admirer THAT about you. But it's ok to have those off days and to have those days where you just remember.
Always thinking of you!!!!! Lot's of prayers and dust your way!
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Posted 10/13/10 9:24 PM |
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gina409
TWINS!
Member since 12/09 27635 total posts
Name: g
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Re: Rough day
im so sorry..i hope tomorrow is a better day
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Posted 10/13/10 10:39 PM |
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