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MrsMessina
Thankful for our miracles!
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So I've been trying really hard to stay positive...
but tomorrow morning is my beta and the pg tests are showing up BFN. 
On Friday night I got the lightest ever BFP on a cheapie internet test--- and BOTH DH and I saw it... but ever since -everything (FRER, cheapie internet test, EPT, and Answer) are all coming up BFNs w/ FMU and at other times in the day after I've held it for hours before POAS. 
I am trying so hard to stay calm but keep  . I don't even know how to explain it- I feel cold inside like I have ice around my heart, and am trying to figure out how I'm going to deal w/ tomorrow. My biggest fear w/ doing this now was that my Christmas was either going to be ruined or my prayers were going to finally be answered, but unfortunately I think I have my answer. 
DH asked me about adoption today..... and I am just not there yet. I'm sorry, I know I haven't been on here nearly as long as a bunch of you, but I have been w/ my DH for over 11 years and married almost 5 and trying the whole time since we were married,... and I just want it to be our turn already.
This weekend both days were spent w/ family- yesterday w/ mine and today w/ his- and today's was to celebrate his cousin coming home from California for Christmas w/ his girlfriend of like 2 years, and their new baby whose like 7 months old now. It was just really hard on me to go there.... sorry, I guess I just needed to vent. Sorry it got so long... 
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gsgirls1
LIF Toddler
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St Gerard and God, thank you for our blessing
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Re: So I've been trying really hard to stay positive...
Keep the faith. You will receive what you want and have many blessings.
When your baby comes, you will love it even more because you waited so long.
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| Posted 12/21/08 9:07 PM |
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Blu-ize
Plan B is Now Plan A
Member since 7/05 32475 total posts
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Susan
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Re: So I've been trying really hard to stay positive...
Shannon, hang in there. I know how disappointed you are. Maybe it's just too early. Try to stay up.
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| Posted 12/21/08 9:17 PM |
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-BabyMiracle-
When will my ship come in?
Member since 9/07 1056 total posts
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J
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Re: So I've been trying really hard to stay positive...
I completely understand where you are coming from. But you are not out just yet. 
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| Posted 12/21/08 9:29 PM |
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LisaW
Time for me to FLY!
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Did I ever tell you that I hate people?
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Re: So I've been trying really hard to stay positive...
I'm so sorry Shannon
Hope you have a nice surprise tomorrow
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| Posted 12/21/08 9:31 PM |
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DRMom
Two in Blue
Member since 5/05 20223 total posts
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Melissa
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Re: So I've been trying really hard to stay positive...
I've felt like that in the past. You will have your turn..trust me
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| Posted 12/21/08 9:41 PM |
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MrsJoeG
Beyond Blessed <3
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Amanda
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Re: So I've been trying really hard to stay positive...
I am so sorry Shannon I am here for you.
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| Posted 12/21/08 9:51 PM |
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Jen2999
Baby girls & beagles rock!
Member since 8/06 10356 total posts
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Jen
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Re: So I've been trying really hard to stay positive...
Im thinking of you Shannon!
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| Posted 12/21/08 10:00 PM |
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BA2008
Need to find some hope!
Member since 2/08 2485 total posts
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Beth -Ann
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Re: So I've been trying really hard to stay positive...
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| Posted 12/21/08 10:00 PM |
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rose825
Best Friends
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Re: So I've been trying really hard to stay positive...
take things one day at a time. DH and I have been together 14 years, married 11 and TTC #2 for 5 years now. Only recently was DH ready to accept adoption as our plan.
Hopefully those tests are wrong and you wont need to give this another thought.
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| Posted 12/21/08 10:02 PM |
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MrsRbk
<3 <3 <3 <3
Member since 1/06 19197 total posts
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Michelle
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Re: So I've been trying really hard to stay positive...
Shannon - I'm so sorry.
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| Posted 12/21/08 10:50 PM |
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Bops
My 3 wishes
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Re: So I've been trying really hard to stay positive...
Shannon, try to hang in there....I'm so hard for you that its just too early
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| Posted 12/21/08 10:53 PM |
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karenk71
Love
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Karen
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Re: So I've been trying really hard to stay positive...
Thinking of you...
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| Posted 12/22/08 12:50 AM |
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mishmosh
That's all I got.
Member since 7/06 1452 total posts
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Michelle
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Re: So I've been trying really hard to stay positive...
I'm so sorry Shannon. There are so many of us feeling the same..this time of year especially. You look around at everyone who has kids celebrating the holidays and feel like you're on the sidelines and you just want to be in the game like the rest of them. It's am empty, lonely, desperate feeling. I'm sorry you have to feel it.
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| Posted 12/22/08 5:19 AM |
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Domino
Always My Miracle
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Re: So I've been trying really hard to stay positive...
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IrishLasss334
I'll be there soon!
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Patty
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Re: So I've been trying really hard to stay positive...
Shannon! We are all with you honey! It is so hard to stay positive, I know, I'm struggling this weekend myself, both my sister and step sister announced their pregnancies yesterday at brunch.
It will happen for you!! I believe!
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| Posted 12/22/08 6:43 AM |
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CarlieJLD7
I love my daughter!
Member since 7/07 3061 total posts
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Carlie
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Re: So I've been trying really hard to stay positive...
Awwwww Shannon... I am so sorry... Please stay positive and good luck with your Beta...
Don't give up yet honey... we all get like this sometimes... its also harder when you see other couples thta aren't trying as hard as you, or "didn't" even want a child, and its hard during the holidays... just try to stay positive and keep praying, your day will come.
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| Posted 12/22/08 6:54 AM |
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LaurenExp
Waiting patiently for baby sis
Member since 8/06 11613 total posts
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L-Diddy EDD 11/11/11 :)
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Re: So I've been trying really hard to stay positive...
You know we've talked about this before, and FETs are late implanters, so try to stay positive although I know its difficult.
Just hang in there
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| Posted 12/22/08 8:35 AM |
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shaye3
LIF Adolescent
Member since 2/07 696 total posts
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Laura
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Re: So I've been trying really hard to stay positive...
Lots of hugs
you are not alone..those feelings hit home very much but don't lose faith..it will happen for you somehow someway..
praying for some good beta news for you!
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| Posted 12/22/08 8:39 AM |
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JennyPenny
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Member since 1/08 12702 total posts
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Jen
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Re: So I've been trying really hard to stay positive...
I'm sorry Shannon...
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| Posted 12/22/08 8:59 AM |
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maybeamommy
Blessed beyond belief
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Re: So I've been trying really hard to stay positive...
I'm so sorry
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| Posted 12/22/08 9:08 AM |
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CAH127
LIF Adult
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Re: So I've been trying really hard to stay positive...
I am so sorry for the way you are feeling. Hang in there.
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| Posted 12/22/08 9:08 AM |
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Daisy32
Mommy
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Re: So I've been trying really hard to stay positive...
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08BabySurprise
My Life. My Everything.
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Re: So I've been trying really hard to stay positive...
I am sorry Shannon.
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| Posted 12/22/08 9:26 AM |
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CaseyGirl
Mommy to 3 Boys :)
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Jen - counting my blessings...
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Re: So I've been trying really hard to stay positive...
I'm sorry...I know that feeling...maybe it's not enough yet in your system..I will keep praying for you Shannon
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