think it's time for another group vent!!!!

Any takers????

I am just having a bad week...another 2 pregnant friends...another shower invite...another month of disappointment...I have been at this way too long

I cannot believe how much money,medicine,tears,screams and time we have spent and still we are left empty

I wish I knew why it is so easy for some and so hard for others.I wish I knew why some do not realize what a amazing gift they have been given and don't even appreciate it

I do not even know what to say anymore...I feel like I say and write the same over and over again...just needed to vent .........I feel like the last one to leave the party,except the door is locked for me

I just hate this so much...I hate what is has done to me..

Anyone else feel like venting today?

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I want to vent... but I feel like I can't yet... i have only been trying since June, but I never imagined it would be so frustrating. disappointing and annoying. And yes, everyone around me has kids, is pregnant or is about to try for #2 already... arghhhh.
If I had normal cycles I don't think it would be as hard, I am just so confused by my body right now its making me really upset.

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I didnt realize that there was something worse than the pain of infertility.

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Sorry you are going through this and and I hope it's your turn really soon.

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Gina- I am right there with you. You have been through so much & I everything works out for you guys

*edited for sp

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havent really been at it that long but i didnt think i was going to hit the bumps that i did. i am the only one in my family without a child. i was cold to dh this morning because my boobs started to hurt which is always my first sign that af is comin in a few days but i called to say sorry. my age is starting to scare me and i found out that a wonderful couple who got married a few months before us are expecting.

five guys burger just opened up across the street from my office im sure that will make me feel better

big hugs to you gina

i think about you all the time

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i know how you feel. although i haven't been trying as long as you, it has still been frustrating and disappointing each month there has been a BFN .. and you're right going to the RE gets expensive! it sucks too when everyone around you announces their pregnancy... and you have to put on a fake smile... and you feel bad for feeling that way! I hope IVF finally gives you the child you've been dreaming of!

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I dont know what you are feeling & wouldnt begin to understand. I think about you often & pray that it will happen! You are a wonderful, wonderful person & deserve it the most.

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My younger sister is 26 and has 3 kids with 3 different dads. Ridiculous.

My twin sister has a 2 year old and is pregnant again due in February and my sister in law just had a baby this summer.

Im the only one in my family who has PCOS and nobody seems to understand that we have a long road ahead. I get asked all the time "so when are the babies coming .." How fukking rude is that question. Disgusting.

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you can vent all you want...I cant begin to understand your pain but I can give you a whenever you need one!!!

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I NEEDt to vent.
CD3 today of CYCLE 12
I had blood test, SA and HSG last cycle all come out great...so why the hell cant i get my BFP.

I feel empty..its the only thing i really want and have not been able to obtain.


I try not to lose hope but it is harder and harder on me every month.

Have an app on 10/26/2011 to explore more options...

Some days i just want to stay in bed and cry.

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to you all!

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I have days where I have soooo much guilt, I feel like its my fault DH is going thru this because I'm the one with the issues. I hate myself for not being 100% happy for others when they announce pregnancies. This year alone I have been to 4 baby showers and have been invited to numerous 1st-3rd bday parties, I feel like the only one without any kids.....and everytime I see DH interact with a baby or toddler I want to tear up.

IF is unfair!

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Right there with you... 16 months no baby, just a miscarriage at 10 weeks... another birthday not pregnant... and now beginning to explore my options by switching to an RE. And my friends just don't understand and can't relate, and they try to be encouraging or realistic and it just winds up making me feel worse or like they are blowing me off. Also starting to worry how far we can go with everything financially, emotionally and physically... The ladies on the IF board are my inspiration.

Edited to say that I am proud of myself for being able to go and look at my friend's 20 week sono pictures and hear about her appointment without crying until I got back to my desk.

It's really one of those days...

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I almost need to leave Facebook b/c of everyone's pregnant statuses and newborn baby pics...it makes it seem as though EVERYONE is getting pregnant and having a baby RIGHT NOW..but I think I am just more senstitive to it.

I just started my journey (going on cycle 4) but already noticed that a few girls who joined this board after me are pregnant already after trying for 1 or 2 months. I am really happy for everyone's BFP's and just hope it isn't a long road ahead for me and DH since I am already mid-thirties.

It will happen when it is meant to be.

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To you all!!! That's what these boards are for!!! Gina I am so very sorry you are going through all of this! This should not be happening to a wonderful woman like you!!!! I wish nothing but the best for you!!!

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Im so sorry. Lots of &

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first off to all of us


but I totally understand how you all feel. It's month 10 for us, and I just don't know what I can do. I can't keep going to the dr and spending $200 a visit every 2 weeks because my ins coverage is horrible, don't O because my body sucks, and I feel like a failure as a wife and a woman because I can't give my DH a child. I have 2 friends who are pregnant- not in any sort of relationship, nor are they financially, responsibly or emotionally ready to be mothers right now. Plus, my SIL got pregnant on our wedding night, and is having her baby shower soon. I feel so guilty for feeling jealous. but I can't help it. There's no way for us to be able to afford IVF right now and my current ins doesn't offer any assistance

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I hate the waiting process.

I hate the copays at the RE.

Unrelated- I hate that I have a sore throat and headache and this is supposed to be my vacation time from work!!

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to you all....I'm still new at TTC and I even think the waiting time is long. I often think about this board and all of you wonderful women who have such patience with the process. More and you will get that BPF! Your LO's will be the most spoiled, loved, and meaninful

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i hate that the early morning sono/bloodwork has become a normal routine in my life

i hate feeling stressed that i will be late for work b/c the RE office is super crowded

i hate the bruises on my arms from bloodwork and students asking 'what happened'

i hate that its so easy for everyone around me and so hard for me (although i am happy for them)

and i HATE when people say 'so when are you having a baby'

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I hate that I went to RE today and I have a stupid cyst and didn't even get to try this cycle. I hate that my insurance sucks and I have to pay so much out of pocket. That I will never have the chance to have IVF because of the cost. If I have to go through one more month of this waiting and dissapointment. Onto 17 months of no baby while I have watched others get pregnant and have kids while I am still waiting.

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we are here for you

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