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CaseyGirl
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uh oh...starting to panic
I've got a month left of maternity leave. I feel like the longer I'm home, the harder its going to be to go back. DS and I have a nice routine going and he gets more smiley every day. Now I'm scrambling in panic mode to come up with ideas - win the lotto, work from home jobs etc...I knew this would get me! I just keep staring at him and saying how?? How am I going to do this? This is my job now! How is it fair that I can't be with him all the time when it is the most natural thing in the world...
So sad...lump in my throat and tears as I type :(
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Posted 10/9/09 2:26 PM  |
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Re: uh oh...starting to panic
I remember when that time was coming... It made me sad to think of it. I kept telling DH that no one will care and love Mason the way I do. I eased back into it with my MIL watching DS. It wasn't so hard to leave him at home. I cried his first few days of daycare. Now that I'm back at work DS is on a routine with me. We drive together in the mornings to daycare then I go to work, have some time for coffee and I count the minutes to see him when the day is over. I see he's doing well at daycare and likes the teachers. Work is good for my head and I like the pple I work with so that makes it easier.
I was thinking of everything too, but now that I'm working it's not so bad and my nights and weekends are all about DS. Makes me appreciate every moment I get with him.
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| Posted 10/9/09 2:30 PM |
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LeShellem
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Re: uh oh...starting to panic
Posted by CaseyGirl
I've got a month left of maternity leave. I feel like the longer I'm home, the harder its going to be to go back. DS and I have a nice routine going and he gets more smiley every day. Now I'm scrambling in panic mode to come up with ideas - win the lotto, work from home jobs etc...I knew this would get me! I just keep staring at him and saying how?? How am I going to do this? This is my job now! How is it fair that I can't be with him all the time when it is the most natural thing in the world...
So sad...lump in my throat and tears as I type :(
I can relate. I am still trying to find a way to stay home and DS is 7 months. But really he is thriving at daycare. There is no way I could duplicate that with him being at home. Also I know I use to get those days where I just needed to step away from DS, no more such days now. I am thrilled to see him everyday, even if he is whinny cause he's tired. It is hard in the beginning but it does get better. Enjoy this last month, I made sure I did all the things I knew I would be able to do once I went back to work.
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| Posted 10/9/09 3:02 PM |
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ME75
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Re: uh oh...starting to panic
Posted by CaseyGirl
I've got a month left of maternity leave. I feel like the longer I'm home, the harder its going to be to go back. DS and I have a nice routine going and he gets more smiley every day. Now I'm scrambling in panic mode to come up with ideas - win the lotto, work from home jobs etc...I knew this would get me! I just keep staring at him and saying how?? How am I going to do this? This is my job now! How is it fair that I can't be with him all the time when it is the most natural thing in the world...
So sad...lump in my throat and tears as I type :(
i won't lie...when DS was FIRST born and i was adjusting to those first days at home with him and my 2 yr old...i was counting the days to return to work. being home with them overwhelmed me to no end and some days it still does... but you are right, now that DS is becoming a little smiely mushball i am feeling really sad too that my day is coming in a few weeks. i can't imagine leaving him being so young. my DD started daycare at 15 months so this is different. but what i do know is that i love and trust my daycare-so that helps. and truthfully, i know they will do so well there and learn so much. for my DD daycare has done wonders for her! hoping it's the same for DS! you will so completely love the time you do have with him when you are home. i know i look forward to that b/c i think i take for granted the time i have now and i get frustrated more easily. when i have been at work, and then see them, i will surely not take that time for granted! don't worry! give yourself some time and see how being a working mom feels at first...you might be ok with it. and if not, then maybe you can contemplate making a change. it will be ok!
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| Posted 10/9/09 3:41 PM |
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NinaLemon
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Re: uh oh...starting to panic
I totally understand how you feel, when I was coming to the end of the 12 weeks FMLA I was terrified. I couldn't imagine giving DS to someone else to take care of. I was having nightmares and just thinking about it would bring me to tears. DH and I could just make it on his income, without much extra, it would be tough but we decided to take the plunge.
On the Friday before I was supposed to go back to work I went in and told my boss I wouldn't be coming back. I have been able to get some work as a sub-consultant through different people I have done work with. Things are tight, but I am very happy to make the sacrifice for him.
You never know, maybe it is possible, what field are you in? Can you contact people and do work as a consultant? Is there something else you could do? My Mom has a PhD but did typing at home so she could be home with us. It may not be possible, but maybe it is
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| Posted 10/9/09 4:13 PM |
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