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I can totally understand how you are feeling and what you have been going through. I can try and give you tons of hugs and happy faces to get your mind off things:

Re: Having a bit of a hard time

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Posted by ODonnell

Deb, I really wish I could say something of value, but the other ladies have put it better than I ever could.

You are amazingly strong and you are very entitled to feel sad, down, angry, bitter and so much more. That you are in this position is crappy beyond belief and all I can do is send you lots of hugs and say many prayers.

Well said.

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I don't really have any words for what you are going through and the choices you face and I can only imagine how robbed you feel. How much inspiration you've brought to others is cold comfort when faced with hard realities. You said you can't accept either of those options. I don't think I would be able to either. Is there a third option? Are there 2nd, 3rd, 100th opinions?

Don't feel guilty for lashing out, I'm sure everyone in your family knows you don't mean to hurt them. What you're dealing with has absolutely no instruction manual, and there is no right way to deal with it.

I've never met you, but I love you very much and I'm sure I'm not alone in praying for a miracle.

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Not going to send you hugs, say something like your so strong, cause thats not what you need right now.

you need answers to a horrible horrible situation and Im trying to think how I WOULD make that choice.

I think ultimately I would go with the choice that gave me the best possible outcome, odds wise.

What option gives you a higher likihood of a good life?


What are the precentages of the first surgery versus how long till the tumor takes over in scenario two.

The decision might make me crazy so I think you need if your not on some type of anxiety medication because this is not something to normal human being deals with and I cant imagine many of us -IF any having the strength to do it.

So DO not feel guilty, lets try instead to find a way.

The group thing sounds like its semi helpful but not to a big extent.

I would definatly find out about taking something to relax yourself enough to be able to think without the huge anger and fear that thinking about it involves.

This all probably something you have thought of already.

I wish I could wave a magic wand and make the decision for you.

This is gonna be the hardest thing I think you have ever done.

Hope you will lean on us more if you need to.

Love ya!!!!!

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Deb you should come on here and vent more...let it out. This is a choice that is totaly not fair, a choice no one should have to make. Sometimes I am so pi$$ed off at your situation I want to scream so I can only imagine your feelings. Please you this as an outlet to no holds barred share what you need with who you need to. Might help relieve any misplaced anger at home.

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Honestly, I'd seek out a support group or a therapist that specializes in therapy for those suffering such as yourself.

You are not alone in your feelings Deb I believe it is normal considering what you posted about how you are feeling.

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I couldn't have said it better than most of the other ladies on here Deb. You have every right to feel the way you do! and i am certain those closest to you understand this. please feel free to vent on here as much as you need to! do NOT worry about bringing any of us down! We are ALL here for you!
Love you Deb!

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it is so unfair. you are going to deal with it however you can. stay strong, you are an absolutely amazing woman and an inspiration to all of us.

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I'm so sorry you are going through this. I think of you every day and pray for a quick recovery for you. Really no advice I just wanted to give you lots of hugs and prayers!!!

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YOur whole situation is totally unfair.

I am glad that you are expressing your feelings, venting- you should. It will help you.

The choices that you need to make not fiar, this whole situation sucks.

Please try to muster up the strength and spirit that we all have in our hearts for you.
Please keep using that to get through each moment of each day.
We are your biggest fans- keep your spirit strong :)
We are all here for you.

I will continue to pray for you and your family.

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Some of the other ladies have spoken much more eloquently than I ever could. You have every right to feel the way you do. I agree that the group might be somewhat toxic and perhaps a different group or some other form of therapy would be more suited to your needs.

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This is so incredibly unfair and I'm so sorry you have to go through it

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I wish I could do so much for you Deb, you or anyone else that have this terrible thing don't deserve to feel the things you do.

You always remain in my prayers.

Message edited 2/8/2007 4:02:22 PM.

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Deb-I can only think of this situation as the biggest challenge of your young life.

There are people in this world who would have crumbled under such circumstances.

Yeah, being strong is good but now the people around you need to offer even more support as this tumor seems to be in control.

Don't let it be. You are the one with the control.

You are young and in power. The decisions you make for good or bad will be a part of you. Take the next steps with us and with the people who are closest to you.

Get all of your answers and go from there.

Cry all you want. Cry till there are no more tears. No one deserves those tears as much as you.

You have fought this far..keep fighting..it's worth it.

I'm in your corner cheering you all the way. Go Deb! Go Deb! Go Deb!!

My arms are here to comfort you.

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I can't even begin to imagine how you would make such choices...I can only send love and prayers that somehow God watches over you and helps you through this.

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I think you are being really hard on yourself, Deb. You should be angry, feel cheated, snap at those you love, etc. No one expects you to be a hero.

I am sending you all the strength I have right now. I just wish it could heal you.

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You are human and one of the strongest I have gotten to know via these boards.

You are allowed to yell and scream and snap. Those who love you most understand that best.

I am sorry you have had to go through all of this - if it was me, I don't know if I could be as strong as you.

I pray that you get guidance to make the decision that is best for you

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Thinking of you at this time...I cant even think of something to say

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Why is it that this most beautiful, strong, and courageous woman be dealt with the shittiest of hands?

Deb, I don't even know you and I want to stand in the streets and scream for you. I have my parents, friends, and family all praying for you, your DH, and mini muffin!!

Unfortunately I do not have much advise on your "options" but I do wish for you a long long healthy life with your husband and son!!

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I have no advice for you Deb, that would not be fair since I am not in your shoes. I can only offer continued prayers and to say how much I admire you! you are such a STRONG and courageous woman! a true symbol of all that is GOOD in the world. Keep fighting this. and whatever you decide to do, may God bless you!

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Deb,
I think you have every right to feel the way you do. You have been so strong and positive, and I know you will find this strength again. The options are not wonderful, but I hope and pray that things turn around for you, so you have have the happy healthy life you truly deserve. Feel free to FM me whenever you need to vent, scream, yell, cry! You are entitled!!
Sending you love and strength...
Christy

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I dont think I could say anything that these wonderful ladies have already said...

and I will keep you and your family in my thoughts.